10th January 2010
The day I collected my O level results :)

Went for lunch with e8 without cheryl, nobody had the appetite to eat, and I almost couldn't finish my curry zazzle at pizza hut (Y). But at pizza hut we heard there were 3 national top scorers from 4/3!! CAUSE MR CHAN POSTED ON HIS FB -.- Slowly walked back to school and we were all talking about how we would react if we did well/badly. THENNNNNNNNNNN, we reached the canteen and I saw soooooooooooo many people and 4/4 peeps and suddenly someone came to tell us that nobody in our class got lower than B3 for Amaths!! YES THIS WAS GOOD NEWS!! :))) Then we heard that lit had 87% DISTINCTION!! OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG THAT'S BLOODY GOOD. But then we also heard that geog didn't do that well :( Nevermind still the first two news were good enough.

Walking up the hall, natmok and i saw ms tan and she said that our english was not bad, but 'not bad' might not be me, so the remark is kinda useless. OMGGGGGGGGG REGINA LEE TOOK DAMN LONG TO ANNOUNCE OUR RESULTS AND YAP AI LI COULDN'T STOP TALKING. Announced the 3 national top scorers and we were all damn happy for them :))))) Then the other top scorers of the school. I was having goosebumps and shivers cause they knew they did well. And when regina lee said, "ok you may collect your results now please ...." I WAS EFF SCARED.

Here comes the exciting part :)
I was waiting and waiting and telling everybody how scared I was then i saw mrs selvam walking down the row and telling someone that she has an A1 for chem. And i was thinking "OMG SHITTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT MRS SELVAM IS GONNA COME AND SUAN ME AND TELL ME I GOT A2 FOR CHEM :(" But then she opened her mouth and said "SHI YIN YOU A1 FOR YOUR CHEM, carina you also!!" I WAS SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO EFFING HAPPY, I JUST BURST OUT INTO TEARS :') I was thinking "omgggggggggggggg i got A1 for chem, maybe i did well for the rest, oh but maybe i didn't :( and i was genuinely worried for my amath" Then mrs selvam saw and said "shiyin! why you cry!! YOU DID WELL WHAT!! I think you did quite good also leh!! you want me to help you check?" I was like noooooooooooooooooooooooooo, but then she peeped into my results ...

SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO IT WAS MY TURN ANDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD MS CHONG JUST SMILED AT ME AND SAID "YOU MUST GO AND THANK MRS SELVAM" but i already knew my chem results so i wasn't really listening to her, untilllllllli saw my straight As :'))))))))))))))))))) And i saw the TWO that popped out in the middle of all the ONEs and the THREE that appeared last on the list. I just thanked ms chong and took my paper and counted the number of ONEs i had, one..two..three..four..five.. + english, omgggggggggggg i had seven points on that paper itself plus my chinese :))))))))))))))))))))))) 6 FREAKING ONE. I WAS LIKE ELATEDDDDDDDDDDDD. JUMPING FOR JOY I COULDN'T STOP CRYING IT WAS UNBELIEVABLE :') I was so happy i didn't care about my amath at all.

I called my mother and told her I got 7 points!! 6 A1s, 8As :)))))))))))))))) And she screamed -.-

SIGHS BUT AFTER THAT DAY, the TWO stood out more than anything else. TWO for Amath ... and THREE for HCL. I know i should be happy with my A1 for chem but a TWO for amath is really saddening :( But honestly, my paper 2 was a mess >:( So i guess ... no luck this time round.

I HOPE I WILL FEEL THIS HAPPY FOR A LEVELS TOO :')

SOOOOOO it has been quite awhile since I collected my O level results. I must say on that day, I was the happiest girl alive. It wasn't because I scored 7 points or 6A1s (which sadly, did not include AMATH), it is because I was given the assurance that really, 'nothing is impossible'. For a girl who used to be bottom 5 of the class, I guess hard work is the only thing that explains how I came so far. Despite all the discouraging comments from teachers, I really really wanted to prove them wrong and I DID! IN THEIR FACE, I DID IT!! But now that I have done it, I need to continue proving them wrong, I WILL BE ABLE TO COPE IN VJ.

COMPLACENCY
is really one thing that I hate myself so much for. If it wasn't for that, I wouldn't have screwed up my paper 2 and gotten a disgusting and unsightly 2 for AMATH. Indeed, it was a huge blow, on the other hand, it's a sign to tell me to NEVER BE COMPLACENT!! In vj, I see so many people who reminds me of me. I agree with the math lecturer, he said 'students from other jcs might not be as smart as you, but they are working very hard'. ITS SO TRUE. Studying in vj = mugger. This makes me miss IJ even more. Images of us working together not as a circle of friends or a class but the entire cohort together with ALL THE TEACHERS. And I strongly believe every girl from batch 2010 were genuinely happy with the results we have produced for the school before we left. IJ has indeed inculcated me all kinds of values. It has sheltered me 10 years of my life and now that i have to spread my wings to fly on my own, I really really truly truly miss and appreciate IJ.

I don't really like being in a school that has very high academic standards afterall :( I still miss IJ where everybody were just mediocre and equal and nobody will be called a mugger for wanting to do well or called a closet mugger for wanting to have fun in school.

I miss IJ so much :(

There's nowhere where i can spit my sorrows so the old and traditional blogspot shall be my place :)

Just read some tweets about people complaining about 6 times training, too much work, same boring routine. OMFG. WAKE UP YOU STRAWBERRY CLAN. This is only the beginning. First you complain about going to training during HOLIDAYS 6 times a week, now you complain about the same shit and thinking about giving up. WHAT THE FUCK. All i need is passionate players who are willing to give everything they can just to get what they really really have been training for. Not a bunch of people who are always complaining about how much hardwork they have to go through.

I wanna tell them off so badly, excuse me, i train 7 times a week LIKE WTF, i too stay back after training to play games, and i too have fucking 8 subjects to handle, and i too need to sleep and rest. I DON'T FUCKING COMPLAIN ABOUT IT EVERYDAY. Suck it up assholes , 15 already, 1555555555555555555555555. Imagine going through this shit during my most important years for 4 freaking months and having to bear the biggest responsibility, i don't see why i can do it and you can't. Passionate players won't complain a shit, learn to prioritise ur fucking time. OH COME ON, it has only been 2 fucking days. LIKE 2 FUCKING DAYS. Does it kill?! OMFG. The more you people complain about it, the more i wanna stand up to say that 'I'VE BEEN THROUGH THIS SHIT BEFORE AND I'VE NEVER EVER COMPLAINED ABOUT IT' LIKE WTF. In fact, i've been through MORE SHIT.

OMG just two months of hardwork and you are crying and whining and wallowing like there's no tomorrow. WTF. For 4 freaking years, i've been working hard so badly. Well maybe not the first yr but i still train harder than ANY OF YOU. Crying?! I cry every training in Sec 2 too, feeling so down and unappreciated every training. Losing the most important match playing like shit. And in sec 3, losing the most important match again, WTF, coach saying i played like shit, SUCK IT UP, CONTINUE TRAINING, WHAT THE FUCK CAN I DO BESIDES CONTINUE TO IMPROVE MYSELF. Bloody hell. GET OVER IT. It's only getting scolded for less than a month, i've been having problems with myself, my hormones, and coach and the team for the longest time. SUCK THE FUCKING UP.

If you guys can't pull through this shit and continue to complain every single day, TRUST ME, the chance of you guys winning is near 0. I'm sorry.